Have you ever been going through motions, not really paying attention to what's happening and WHAM! You make a huge mistake? This was me last night. My back has been out since last Saturday. After quite a few days of not getting any better I decided it's time to hit my hard core meds. I hate taking these because they've been known to make me hallucinate (creepy old men looking at me from behind a curtain that isn't there, momma duck and her babies strolling through my kitchen) and they make me sleep hard but when I wake up I feel like I'm in a fog. It was time though. I decided to alternate my meds. One soma, then 3 ibuprofen, one soma, 3 ibuprofen... Last night I went to take my soma, apparently in the ibuprofen mode, and took 3 of them. I realized this just as I swallowed. I immediately went to the bathroom and threw up (shudder, ick, eww!) everything I've eaten in the past month but no sign of the pills. Next step, call poison control. The good news was I probably wouldn't die. The bad news was my husband had to keep me up until 3am just to make sure. Poor guy, constantly shaking me, "Trina, wake up!" Needless to say, this morning we're both miserable...I think. I could be hallucinating.
The fog is starting to clear. I was thinking that it's similar to going through motions in life, not really paying attention to what's important, not worrying about our actions then WHAM! We realize we've let the adversary get a hold on us. Maybe we realize because we do something stupid that sort of wakes us up from our stupor. Maybe it's someone else or a life event that makes us aware. In either case we have to do what it takes to get back on track and change our behaviors so it doesn't happen again. I think it's also important to be aware that just because our choices are ours, doesn't mean they don't affect those around us. Ask my husband this morning. He'll back me up.
I have no idea how to end this post I'm not quite that cleared up enough. More good news though. I didn't hallucinate! Weird.
I am so glad you are alright girl! Sometimes I can't remember if I took my pain meds. I find most of the time I seem to be going through life almost in a rote condition. Then I am afraid to take my pain meds until the six hours are past and usually I am in pain. I worry constantly about mother taking her hard core meds :) Or else sharing them...;/ She shares everything if it is a good thing!!! (Marae and I could probably write a book:)
ReplyDeleteLove your analogy as usual :) xoxo
Oh my goodness! How scary! I'm so glad you're okay! So how's your back feeling now? Is it getting any better?
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ReplyDeleteGlad you're okay. Sounds like you need one of those med boxes where you set all your doses up by the hour.
ReplyDeleteSorry about the fog. Glad you're only seeing things that are there.
Stopping by from SITS. Have a great weekend.